goalsposting for 2023
Jan. 30th, 2023 12:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sunkisserno 2022 in fic bc I posted none… goals, however
how to start…. so I basically completed none of my goals for last year lol. to put it all in context:
the only one I could really count as "met" is the first one because I read 24 books this year, but most of them were for school and out of all of those only 6 were for my own personal enjoyment T__T
I didn't clear my marked for later tagged AND finished the year with over 100 fic tabs open (again), started writing a few but didn't post any fics, barely cross-stitched and did not move a single muscle except for the two weeks I spent learning the baby one more time choreography for an assignment… all in all, not great. I've never been too big on new year goals anyway so it's not like I'm particularly upset about it, but these goals DO align with a sort of more structured way of living that I WOULD like to achieve, so it'd be beneficial if I could get on with it and just meet my goals TT
idk if it's on me for having sort of vague, lifestyle related goals and if I should present them differently to myself so I can feel more structured or motivated. if I cared more about it I might watch a video on it or something but as it stands I am setting my goals basically in february and they're more or less a repeat of last year's failed ones so I'm not sure how much that would help…
either way what I'd like to achieve the most is just Balance. I want school/social life balance, work/enjoyment balance, I want to exercise so I can feel balanced and practice my hobbies so I can feel fulfilled and these may seem like such simple things to do but for me it can be so Hard sometimes to structure myself and find time for the things that I enjoy. mostly because I'm always second-guessing myself and, not to get too deep about it, but sometimes even wondering if I deserve these moments of enjoyment, especially when the school year rolls around and academic pressure threatens to crush me.
the only thing I really feel like I achieved this year was more confidence in my writing. I didn't post a single fic but I liked everything I wrote and kept writing purely because I liked the story I was trying to tell and not because I thought others might like it or it might get a lot of kudos/attention on ao3. it was very, very nice and there was even a period of time in which I wrote very consistently (coincidentally one of the times I was on break T__T but it was almost two months of consistent writing) and it made me feel So Good about myself. I gained so much confidence but somehow I feel like I could do a lot better still.
so, once again, my goals this year are set so I can start getting over that mindset a little and enjoy my hobbies a little more. maybe throw in a little academic/career achievement or two, just so I can feel better about myself.
I'm keeping some goals exactly the same, but for the most part:
the modus operandi this year is basically just giving myself a bit more flexibility to see if that'll make it easier to achieve everything I want to. except for the reading part but I feel like if I give myself more flexibility there it'll be counterproductive.
anyway, for the ao3 part, while I'd really Love to read more fic, it all really depends on my mood and how stressed I am, etc. so clearing my tabs, even if it's by just reading a little and putting the rest of the fics in my marked for later, seems like compromise enough.
and then for writing, as much as I'd love to post a lot this year I don't want to pressure myself to do it because it'll just make me feel worse. I feel like I'm at a point in which I'm really content with my writing mentality and I don't want to ruin it, so I'll just aim for finishing fics even if I don't post them and challenging myself to post just one. just so the 3 people subscribed to my ao3 account don't forget I exist.
the cross stitching bit is a little self-explanatory, I just wanna take it back up again no matter what because I really do love and enjoy it T__T and working out… well… it's been in my new year goals since like 2021… third time's the charm right? I'd really just love to get at least some at home workouts in…
and the extracurriculars… well, I just feel like I'm not doing enough so really I just want something to occupy more of my time T__T after taking a theater class this semester I'm seriously considering joining my uni's theater club but sign-ups aren't until october and, honestly, my mind might change by then. so I'll try to see if there's anything else available that I think might be fun or I'll try to get a job probably. I've been wanting to do this for a long time but it's been complicated and job prospects where I live aren’t all that great either, though I'll try applying during the summer and see where it goes. even if it lasts only for as long as I'm on break, all I really want is the experience and to be able to make at least a tiny bit of money TT
overall I don't think any goal is too unachievable, it mostly all just depends on my level of commitment and whether or not I get severely depressed again this year lol. only time will tell but I'll certainly try my best
how to start…. so I basically completed none of my goals for last year lol. to put it all in context:
the only one I could really count as "met" is the first one because I read 24 books this year, but most of them were for school and out of all of those only 6 were for my own personal enjoyment T__T
I didn't clear my marked for later tagged AND finished the year with over 100 fic tabs open (again), started writing a few but didn't post any fics, barely cross-stitched and did not move a single muscle except for the two weeks I spent learning the baby one more time choreography for an assignment… all in all, not great. I've never been too big on new year goals anyway so it's not like I'm particularly upset about it, but these goals DO align with a sort of more structured way of living that I WOULD like to achieve, so it'd be beneficial if I could get on with it and just meet my goals TT
idk if it's on me for having sort of vague, lifestyle related goals and if I should present them differently to myself so I can feel more structured or motivated. if I cared more about it I might watch a video on it or something but as it stands I am setting my goals basically in february and they're more or less a repeat of last year's failed ones so I'm not sure how much that would help…
either way what I'd like to achieve the most is just Balance. I want school/social life balance, work/enjoyment balance, I want to exercise so I can feel balanced and practice my hobbies so I can feel fulfilled and these may seem like such simple things to do but for me it can be so Hard sometimes to structure myself and find time for the things that I enjoy. mostly because I'm always second-guessing myself and, not to get too deep about it, but sometimes even wondering if I deserve these moments of enjoyment, especially when the school year rolls around and academic pressure threatens to crush me.
the only thing I really feel like I achieved this year was more confidence in my writing. I didn't post a single fic but I liked everything I wrote and kept writing purely because I liked the story I was trying to tell and not because I thought others might like it or it might get a lot of kudos/attention on ao3. it was very, very nice and there was even a period of time in which I wrote very consistently (coincidentally one of the times I was on break T__T but it was almost two months of consistent writing) and it made me feel So Good about myself. I gained so much confidence but somehow I feel like I could do a lot better still.
so, once again, my goals this year are set so I can start getting over that mindset a little and enjoy my hobbies a little more. maybe throw in a little academic/career achievement or two, just so I can feel better about myself.
I'm keeping some goals exactly the same, but for the most part:
the modus operandi this year is basically just giving myself a bit more flexibility to see if that'll make it easier to achieve everything I want to. except for the reading part but I feel like if I give myself more flexibility there it'll be counterproductive.
anyway, for the ao3 part, while I'd really Love to read more fic, it all really depends on my mood and how stressed I am, etc. so clearing my tabs, even if it's by just reading a little and putting the rest of the fics in my marked for later, seems like compromise enough.
and then for writing, as much as I'd love to post a lot this year I don't want to pressure myself to do it because it'll just make me feel worse. I feel like I'm at a point in which I'm really content with my writing mentality and I don't want to ruin it, so I'll just aim for finishing fics even if I don't post them and challenging myself to post just one. just so the 3 people subscribed to my ao3 account don't forget I exist.
the cross stitching bit is a little self-explanatory, I just wanna take it back up again no matter what because I really do love and enjoy it T__T and working out… well… it's been in my new year goals since like 2021… third time's the charm right? I'd really just love to get at least some at home workouts in…
and the extracurriculars… well, I just feel like I'm not doing enough so really I just want something to occupy more of my time T__T after taking a theater class this semester I'm seriously considering joining my uni's theater club but sign-ups aren't until october and, honestly, my mind might change by then. so I'll try to see if there's anything else available that I think might be fun or I'll try to get a job probably. I've been wanting to do this for a long time but it's been complicated and job prospects where I live aren’t all that great either, though I'll try applying during the summer and see where it goes. even if it lasts only for as long as I'm on break, all I really want is the experience and to be able to make at least a tiny bit of money TT
overall I don't think any goal is too unachievable, it mostly all just depends on my level of commitment and whether or not I get severely depressed again this year lol. only time will tell but I'll certainly try my best
